Ok I am just going to write whatever is on my mind, which is probably a dangerous endeavor. To start off I will first tell you who I am, then try to give you an account of my life. The parts I can remember anyway. And this might help to explain my thoughts as I express them. I am a 58 year old man, a professional in the construction industry. I am married with two grown children with who have children of their own, all of which I have learned to love more dearly as I get older. Well where do I start, ok I was born in 1953 on Staten Island NY. To a family who dysfunctional would be something to shoot for. We started out dirt poor living with different relatives through the difficult times, and while I was young, it was where I first started to learn about helping out people. Even though in the midst of this lesson the family as whole was pretty nuts. So this is where it started getting weird for me. On one hand tenderness and giving hearts, on the other hands verbal and physical abuse, sometimes to the point of extreme. And most of this I experienced before I was five years of age. It also was a great time to be a kid. The late fifty’s and early sixties was a incredible time easy and free, also extreme, in my life and the world around me. My first understanding of world events in my life came with the Cuba missile crisis. And if you were around then you know what I mean. Extreme was the way of the times.
How I started noticing it was by the fear and concern I was seeing in the faces of the adults around me. Parents and family friends and hearing the discussions of the uncertainty of life as we knew it continuing as it had. School where we practiced air raids as we ducked under our desks to save us from thermo nuclear war which was so solidly enforced with daily television programs showing the absolute devastation of such a thing occurring , that I didn’t think the desk let alone the building in which it was in, even I at my young age knew that was not going to work out to well. And this is when I started to see how insane it all was.
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